Thursday, 28 March 2013

A Charismatic Curse


Telling a story is so much like singing a song; you need a rhythm that sways the reader, your pitch should be perfect and the words must be crystal clear, falling into the listener’s ear with the finest clarity. But sometimes the singer has to throw away all these rules to sing a song. There will be jerks in the rhythms, raga and shruthi will have to be ignored and words will be reduced into blasting sounds. There will be nothing but energy in that song. Such is the story I am going to sing today – My story. Well… Read and Enjoy!
         
          My story starts, obviously, the day I was born. But being a family man, living a peaceful life, I have to say my real story, the story that shaped the man who I am today starts in the first week of 9th standard; Junior college as we used to call it back then.
          After college everybody laughs at that phrase, but an unbiased perspective will tell you that there was something about the last four years at school that gave a tint of college life. It was marked by radical life-changing turning points, so many colours and plummeting attendance. What you learn over there will mould your life. I learnt a lot from Ajith. And it almost moulded my life.
          For us 9th graders, 11th graders were nothing less than Gods.  Just out of 10th standard Board Exam pressure and absolutely ignorant of the academic importance thrust in the year, they were the symbols of the explosion youngsters could make. They had the energy, the power, the vibrancy, the charm… The Charisma! They were the epitome of “Fun”, ask any school student. Best at Basketball, soccer and cricket, amazing pranksters, unbeatable at repartee, kings and queens of wit and for some illogical reason – stunningly good looking! Let me put it straight, for us, hanging out with one of them was like; our ultimate ambition. Being known as, “The guy who hangs out with those 11th graders” would do wonders to your social status (which obviously meant everything to a school boy. And a college boy. And basically any human being in the world)
          And Ajith was my hero. Boy, what is it about him that almost makes you gay. I swear I have fallen in love with him every time he smiles at me. How is Ocean blue eyes just throw me into an imperius curse! What was it about him? He was tall, handsome, smart, funny, friendly, athletic, and astonishingly popular; every girl admitted her love for him. How does all this work? Charisma… the mystery behind the word is seriously annoying.
          Thankfully, or maybe not, I had known these two facts much before I got into 9th standard and by God’s grace, I got to know him in the first week of school itself. There, as I told you all earlier, started my story. For most of my batch mates, this part of the story might be the longest. But lucky for you, this is all there is in my case:
“Anila, I have something to tell you. And I won’t make this long. Just 3 words” The round faced girl with plaited hair and a beautiful big bindi turned red, her eyes almost pooped out. “I”, followed by the most clichéd pause and a sigh for special effects, “have a really bad stomach ache. Do you have any medicines or something?”
          “GO TO THE DOCTOR YOU JACKASS!!!” I had cracked up and started towards the gang before she could react. “And that’s 14 by the way!”
          “Sorry, always been bad at maths” Bonus points! Ajith’s right hand man, Vinay was patting my shoulder and I could see the boss himself beaming at me.
          “Good job kiddo”, Ajith high-fived me, and I had made my Grand Entry into the Most Prestigious Posse of City International School. Tadaaaa!!!
          Boy was that year fun! Was there a day I had not laughed? Was there a day that was not awesome? Started out with movies and lunch get-togethers, but soon I was with them travelling across the country for a vacation. Late night hang-outs and partying at bars had become a norm. Drinking became a habit and smoking became an addiction. And girls were flocking towards me. Dream come true moments.
I mean, I could actually see myself a few months back, yearning to have fun, the way you are supposed to have fun. And there I was, living the moment. In a matter of few months school life had changed upside-down. I was the centre of attraction in my batch – junior Ajith, as many called me! People wished they could hang out with me, guys and gals were shy of talking to me, and my juniors looked up to me with awe. Lived every minute of it, let me tell you. When somebody treats you like a boss, be the boss! And when people don’t, treat them like shit!
“Where are you going?” My mom enquired, and that pissed me off. Moreover, the place where I was going to… was not a place anyone would discuss with their parents.
“Mom, I am not a kid. Please let me be myself…” My mom was always that annoying type. You know, always nagging you, “Where are you going?”, “When will you be back?”, “Be careful when you cross the road” and it goes on and on and on and on… Of late, I learnt to ignore it. I seriously didn’t want anything to ruin the moment. I was fussy about my royal stature.
  “How do you get rid of annoying Moms?” I asked Ajith one day. It seems it was a question almost everyone in our group had.
“Get married”
“And how do you get rid of annoying wives?” another question popped up.
“You can’t. Law of the universe my pal. An annoying woman is always there to ruin the day!” Ajith was unstoppable.
So was my mom. “Did you do your homework today?”
“Mom, FIY, I got past 4th standard five year back!” I simply walked out of the house.
And as I explored new arenas of school life, started moving to next levels, even my mom started stepping up her game. Can’t call it a game, sometimes it was seriously annoying and got on my nerves.
“That doesn’t even belong to me. I have to return it tomorrow. Got it just for one bloody day, can’t you at least let me play for that one day?” – When she hid the PSP I borrowed from my friend, so that I focus on my studies. Things got a tad rougher when she found cigarettes under my bed.
          If my mom was tough, I was the Don. Nothing could stop me from living the life. I played my Play Station, had me drinks and lived my life. Yeah, she was there with her constant policing, but as they say, Don ko pakadna mushkil hi nahin, Namumkin Hai!
          Until finally we reached the, “This ends here!” moment. Kind of too childish to describe the situation actually, because what happened could easily be called as World War III if she anybody but my Mom. Second term results were out and she found the report card which, I thought I had were tactfully hidden! “WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING IN SCHOOL? WHAT KIND OF MARKS ARE THESE?” The anger in her eyes…
          “Amma, nobody studies in 9th standard. Nobody will even see these marks. Everybody -”
          “I DON’T WANT TO LISTEN ABOUT EVERYBODY. I DON’T WANT TO LISTEN TO ANYTHING. THERE IS A LIMIT; I CANNOT TOLERATE ANY MORE OF THIS NONSENSE!”
          “Who is asking you to?”
          I almost did it in my pants I swear! The way her face turned, tears filled in her eyes, cheeks turned red, as if on fire. She was shivering all over, never had I seen her like that. She grabbed my hand with every ounce of strength and pulled me into my room. “YOU ARE SITTING IN HERE. THAT IS IT!” She screamed locking the room from outside. And I could not even move. The entire scene had paralysed my. And worse, I would miss my movie that night!
          And for a whole day, she did not open the door. I figured she meant business. For even if I had blasted the twin tower and my mom happened to be the President of the US, she would still give me three meals a day!
          One of Ajith’s friends had once told me how to open locked doors without the key. You could use a safety pin; twist it into a key and “Open sesame!” had never tried it before, but it worked. It was well past midnight, so I figured mom must have been asleep. Thought of dialling Ajith and meeting up. Cautiously, I moved to the living room to get out of the house. I found my mom lying on the floor in front of the sofa. She had fainted.
          I rushed towards her, her glaring face filled with tears still in front of my eyes, pulled her head on my lap and tried to wake her up. She wouldn’t wake up. Brought a glass of water from the kitchen and sprinkled it on her face, slowly she opened her eyes. Her head turned towards me and she jerked up, “Oh! Wait, oh my God, did I fall asleep. So sorry da! Wait, dinner is ready, eat now”
          She ran towards the kitchen chiding herself. “How could I fall asleep!? Oh my God, my boy has not eaten anything today. Here, eat fast. Shayy! I didn’t feed you anything, Oh my God!”
          Wait, did my mom just get Alzheimer’s or something. What was going on? I was shocked. “I am so sorry da. I shouldn’t have locked you up. I don’t know, I got so angry, and… so,” and she started weeping. “I didn’t know what to do. How to make you listen? How to make you understand? You listen to your friends and obey every word they say. They are cool, and all that. I am not. What would I do? I just didn’t know. I am so sorry da. Here, have some more. Do you want anything else?”
          Obey every word they say? I didn’t obey everything they said. I was not their slave. Wait… I…
          “Dad, I going to play with my friends. And in the name of bloody heaven will you get my cell phone fixed atleast today!? It has been almost a week since I have been screaming and… I want it perfectly working today itself, alright?” My son shouted from across the room and slammed the door.
          That night my mom taught me two things:
1.    Charisma a curse. It makes you oblivious about a beautiful world; that is just not charismatic.
2.    If you set your heart to it. You can even make a blind man see.
And today my son reminded me one thing. Life has to go a full circle. Wonder where I kept the keys to his room?

                                                                                                                                        
Love

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